I turned 23 a few weeks ago and made a commitment that this year would be focused on growing in faith. Not that I ever anticipated it to be easy, but man, is it hard. I’ve been struggling with keeping my eyes fixed on Christ, especially when I feel like my world is in chaos. I’m trying to stay above the noise but in my weakest moments I’m consumed by negativity, pressure, stress, and self doubt. Some days I just cry and it seems like there’s no end to the tears. Other days, I have a raging headache and it’s made worse when I stress over not knowing why I always seem to have one. In all honesty, I think it’s the fear of the unknown, so crippling and so difficult to fight.
When I start to lose hope, I remember all the other times where I felt like I was barely holding on and God carried me through. Over the years, I’ve felt God working miracles and I confidently use the word miracles, because none of the great things that have happened in my life could I have done on my own. When I remember the difficult times, the low points in my journey, and the circumstances during the toughest struggles, I don’t know how else I would have gotten through if it wasn’t for God working and carrying me. I thank Him everyday for not abandoning me.
I suppose that’s why this song means so much to me because it’s a beautiful reminder to wait on the Lord. Even if people move on from you, if loved ones fail you, if the world folds, if all else fades, He remains faithful, loving, and strong tirelessly working for your good. The commitment I made is to do exactly what the song says. " stay should the world by me fold… lift up Your name as the darkness falls…wait and hold fast to Your word. Heart on Your heart and my eyes on You". I’m excited for all that He has in store for me, because I know it’s only great things. I just have to patiently wait and let go of fear, fixing my eyes on His perfect ways and looking forward. This is my prayer.
Wait on the Lord, be of good courage and He shall strengthen your heart. Wait, on the Lord. - Psalm 27:14.